2001-04-02 - 8:46 a.m.
#34: No Need for Brain Spasms
Note to self: The time is now. It's dark and stormy. The day is overshadowed by storm clouds. It is time.... for me to wear all black. Yes, with this black long sleeved shirt I got in Melbourne, I too can look evil and menacing on a really bad day in an alley somewhere. Mind you, so does Pee Wee Herman, but for decidedly different reasons than mine. Anywho, what this all means is that since I'm not going to sweat so much today, I thought I might as well throw on my whole black dress ensemble. But without the long black overcoat. That's reserved for a time when I feel like illegally trading in VCDs.
It's strange how much the difference of a good night's (well, morning's) sleep can do for you. Last night I was totally panicked about not being able to do several maths problems on my assignment. REALLY panicking. Judging from the first 3 questions, I had thought that the last 2 would be easy as well. And even though I missed out a couple of sections in the first 3 questions, I thought I could make up the time after finishing the last 2. I was wrong. Hella wrong. The last 2 questions turned out to be a lot harder than expected and as well as that: I discovered that the first 3 questions had a lot going on that I didn't realise, making them a lot harder than usual. This is not a good discovery to make at 12AM in the morning when you're sitting down to finish what you thought to be an easy assignment that's due in another 13 hours time. And so, I went completely bonkers, crying out against a cruel pitiless world that I should be assigned maths problems like this. Mind you, every other person in my class had to do it too, so I didn't have much justification in my ranting.
Anyway, I went to sleep at 2AM feeling pretty agitated, having only advanced a wee bit in the problems, and tossed and turned most of the night. But in the morning, I was pretty calm. It's strange. I still can't do the problems (I've looked at them again, and pfeh. Blank) but I feel a lot calmer about that fact.... It's kinda weird. I've rationalised my failing this particular assignment somewhere during the night. Maybe it's because I'm suffering from sleep dep. I'm sure to panic again when I reach the university and not find anyone able to help me. Yes, that will be the reaction I was expecting.
Whup, gotta go now. And thus ends my first entry ever before going to university in the morning. And all in 15 minutes, too. Wotcha!
