2001-04-19 - 6:59 p.m.
#48: No Need for Idleness
Note to self: Well, I'm past the sore throat stage of my sickness, (more or less. Just call me "The Phlegmatic Spitser") which has now been replaced by a nagging cough whenever I lie down, and when I stand up, I'm plagued with extreme dizziness and still the nagging cough. And the cough gets irritated way too easily.... I have to constantly drink water to make sure it stays nice and moist (ooo-err). As well as that, I smell like a sick person. You know, that icky sweet smell that always hang around the bedrooms of people who probably take a bit too much medicine than is strictly necessary? Eau de la Sick Person. I wonder if it's possible to bottle and sell it? There's probably a market for this sort of scent.....
Spent most of today and yesterday in idle boredom. And basically looking for ANY excuse not to do my University work. So here's the list what I ran through as I wasted the last 2 days away:
Games? All the games I want to play are either on some console (which I don't have. Of any. No, not even a PSX) or currently out of my budgetary reach on my PC (both in terms of optimum hardware specs and just the plain cash to buy it). Sure I have games currently on my machine that I could play.... Like Baldurs Gate 2, (in which I've gone quite a goodly way), Tales of Phantasia (in which I am just several screens from the end) or Giants: Citizen Kabuto (which I recently restarted) but.... Nah, don't feel like playing any of them at the moment. Kinda weird. Top games they are too, and I'm just plain ignoring them. Too many great game titles out there dangling out of my reach, it's just frustrating. >.<
TV? Regular New Zealand TV? Urgh, not a chance thank you very much. I'm not as much of a channel surfer as I used to be. Must be the severely limited selection on free to air stations. We should get SkyTV but I guess I'm a little glad we didn't.... It'd just mean more channels to get bored with, and we'd have to pay for it, too.
Movies? Just had a movie marathon on Saturday, so I think my interest in watching some more is severely taxed at the moment. Likewise with Chris' videos of which I've only watched Ninja of the Magnificence, and that only part way. I was afraid of busting a spleen watching the badly segued-in "white ninja" parts and redubbed dialogue to introduce a villain and a hero who had no relation to the original story, which appeared to be a Japanese ninja movie. It would have been more fun to watch it as a group rather than alone, however so I didn't really have as much fun alone. Ah well, maybe next time....
Anime? Don't feel like it for some reason, despite the hefty arsenal of stuff in my collection that I still haven't seen. Like all of Fushigi Yuugi, Vampire Princess Miyu OAVs or the ending of Bastard. When I started collecting anime, I was so desperate to watch everything I could get my hands on.... And now that I do have it, I have hardly any interest in it any more. I guess it's one of the detriments to being a member of the AAC. ^^;;; Or something like that. And if I do watch anime, I just keep rewatching stuff that I enjoy rather than new things, too. O.o
Music? I hardly ever just listen to music while doing nothing. Mainly because I have to listen that music through CDs or mp3s on my computer. And leaving my computer on just to play music is kinda silly, so I have to find something to do while I "relax". I wish we still had the massive stereo set we once did in the living room. It was fun having that setup and lying in the middle of the room while the surrounding speakers pumped out the music of my choice. It was like being bathed in a sea of music. Course, I wouldn't indulge that long in that setup neither, and wandered about looking for other stuff to do.
Browsing the internet? On a 56K modem? Considering the fact that most webpages out there nowadays are designed for high speed connections in mind, it's like suffering a slow death by a crushing grainmill powered by a small hamster with a limp. Besides, after downloading all of Sluggy Freelance for Zebs birthday present (damn fine comic, btw. I should have gotten hooked into it much earlier) the thought of doing some hard downloading time with my web browser is none too appealing. So no searching for other webcomics to read from me for a while, I'll just settle with my current list. I'll just go look for a little porn.
Reading/Writing fanfics? Nada. While the thought of getting into a REALLY good fanfic series is appealing, there just aren't many out there which are COMPLETE. I really hate having to read all the way to the end of the current chapter and realise it's been 2 years since the author did an update. It's really frustrating. On that note, I never write fanfics long enough to warrant that kind of a reaction and I plan to stick to it. Hence my many "unfinished threads". ^^;;; And btw, I pity all of you who clicked the last link in the previous paragraph, I really do. And then I'll laugh at you. Mwaha.
Reading in general? That's for bedtime when I really don't want anything too strenuous to do.
Getting out for exercise/social life/working life? Aha. Ahahahahahaha. AHAHAHA! AHAHAHAHOHOHOHEEHEEHA! AHAHAHAHOHEEHEEHAHAHO! Aha. Ha. Too funny. I just crack myself up sometimes. But I guess I could use a little exercise sometime. I'm getting too "cuddly".
Doing some actual work during the holidays for a change? Hmmmm.... Let's go back to the top of the list again and see if I can find something else to do other than this. ^^;;;
Okay, so I'm going to have to do some work SOON cause I haven't done anything AT ALL. And blaming my laziness on other group members just isn't fair to them, so I have to get something done. Mreh. I wish I could have some kind of surgery done to my brain so that I they can find that "hard worker" gland and give me a transplant with some hyper guy. Or something. I need something or someone to motivate me goddamnit, and I don't take myself seriously enough to motivate myself! -_-;;;; I hate being a halfwit sometimes, I really do....
Well.... Back to worrying and not doing anything about my uni work until the very last minute where I'll probably curse myself for leaving it until so late and wishing I could go back in time to start earlier.... Which wouldn't make a difference anyway, since I'd probably just settle down into non working mode and telling myself I'll get it done later. I hate my life.
