2001-06-22 - 10:40 p.m.
#74: No Need for a (rather small) Buffy Marathon
Note to self: I seem to be doing a lot of stupid things on my computer recently and finding it fun. Like downloading MediaPlayer 7.01 for Windows 98 and watching the swirling visualisations that went along with mp3s.... And experimenting between mp3s to see how the patterns differ. It's a curiously addictive psychadelic experience, and without the need for expensive drugs to boot! ^_^ Next random stupid thing: defragmenting my hard drive. You know, the kind of system check and repair that usually takes hours to finish? I decided to watch that for fun. Watching all the three tone blue blocks of data form up to create a sea blue colour to indicate optimisation. On and off for 8 hours. @_@ I guess I was asking for trouble by setting my system up to defragment my hard drive at 8PM in the evening.... Not too smart an idea on my part, really. ^_^ Bwaaaaaaah....
Errr.... I seem to have missed something, so I'll have to say this first before anything else: Happy Birthday Steve! As in the AAC president guy/dude who's currently on his way to Tokyo too see the sights, smell the scents and get transported to another dimension when he enters Tokyo Tower, that sort of thing. On the otherhand, it could be Macguy Steves birthday, I dunno.... O.o Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? And why did I set myself up for a fall by trying to remember peoples birthdays? I'm a GUY. I'm not SUPPOSED to remember birthdays.... It's like some kind of genetic anomaly that's passed unto the male organism of the human species: "Always forget important days so that females can remind you (often loudly) of its importance." Yeah. Well, that's that. O.o
Small update on what's been happening the last couple of days: very little. Actually, event which caused the most excitement occured yesterday, and that was a privately organised AAC event, wherein those of us who attended basked for several hours in Buffy (the vampire slayer. you know the one) DVD goodness. Yes, it's rather pathetic that my life currently seems to revolve going from one AAC organised event to another but hey! I have no life. I have no job, I can't drive and I've quit University. It's not like I have anything else to do, because I really don't. And I can't find the motivation too, either. *angst angst angst, weep weep weep, promise promise promise to do better* There, now that I got all that emotional baggage out of the way, let's move on.
Monday.... I did nothing. Tuesday.... I was meant to go down to the university to confirm getting my fees back for the second semester I was withdrawing from (after paying a fee of 20 dollars, a little ditty which I don't QUITE get), but didn't. Wednesday.... I was meant to go down to the university AGAIN, but still didn't. Thursday.... Once again, I was meant to go to the university in the morning and then later to Zebs place in the afternoon for the Buffy marathon, but yet once more didn't. Friday.... that is to say, today, I was.... Well, you get the picture. I guess I'll be going tomorrow (since I need to go to the city, anyway) but in any case, this is probably not a good reflection on my ability to do things on time. -_-;;;; And some people wonder what went wrong in university for me.... Well, on top of the fact that I fit into group project sessions as easily as a barrel of toxic waste into a small gathering of purple bodied aliens with bunny ears and the collective name of "Zu", anyway.
So. Back to the Buffy marathon. This was a kinda private event (members invited by email as opposed to detailed instructions on the mailing list as per usual AAC events) so erm... Felt kinda giddy with happiness that I would be invited to such a thing (MOI!?) and errrr.... A mite bit guilty, as well. Now, I may be talking out of my ass here (I'm doing that a lot these days... I've decided to call my ass "Ralph", in honour of his arising to be a sentient, talking butt) and I know most AAC members will take this in their stride for not being invited.... I hope. But I know of at least one person who may be rather miffed at being left out of this. I mean.... Those of us who know the score here will know who I'm talking about. Or maybe I'm wrong and he won't feel miffed at all. Afterall, in order to feel slighted by this sort of situation, you'd have to want to go to such an event in the first place, right? So.... Still. Feeling a little bad about this. Erm. I really can't apologise because I went to the Buffy marathon anyway (I'm a sucker for attention and pain) so I don't have the right to do something that might come out pithy and.... stuff. God, I'm bad at this. Why did I type out this section for? I could be embarassing myself for no reason and just instigating something which was never an issue in the first place. @_@ Bleh. Public journal entries are probably the worst way to convey this sort of thing anyway.
So. Back to the Buffy marathon. Again. Got driven down to the event by my mother at 3:30PM and, unfortunately, since it was about an hours drive it was the perfect opportunity for her to lecture me. I really don't enjoy these lectures. They just made me feel worse about the topics she brought up than I already was. I don't really want to feel bad, so I guess I should really do the things she says because they make sense. I mean, learning to drive a car, getting a job, finishing off Uni, that sort of thing. It all makes sense. But making me feel bad about these things isn't a prime motivation for me, really.... It occasionally gets me to do things out of sheer guilt, but can't she for ONCE make me feel good about doing those things? Couldn't she say it in such a way that doesn't imply that I'm useless the way I am and that I have no future the way I'm going? I get enough of these petty recriminations from myself as it is, I don't need some.... some STRANGER to tell me these things. Why, why doesn't she shut up? If she can't say anything good to me to make me feel good, why can't she just shut up? I guess that's another reason that I don't want to do the things that SHE says; because if I do, all I'd be doing is giving her the satisfaction of having emotionally browbeating me into that position. It's not like that, I know. I have to know that it's not really like that, and that she's really doing this for my own benefit and everyone is tired, oh so TIRED of me not making up my mind to get things done. But why can't I feel good while doing it? Maybe, if I just wait long enough, I can be of use to someone?
Well in any case, my compulsion to learn to drive a car has increased triplefold, an event somewhat in conjecture with those above. Afterall, once I get my license, I'll never have to hear her lecture me again. She'll probably never get in a car with me behind the wheel, not since that accident in Adelaide, anyway. Actually, that's probably one of the contributing fears to my wanting to learn to drive. It wasn't a REAL accident; just a very silly and embarassing one. "Embarassed out of driving?" you my ask? Could be.... In any case, that warm thought kept me happily occupied for a while and out of the way of my mothers acidic tongue.... For a while. My mood was pretty black by the time I reached Zebs house at 4:30PM, and I was quite sure it'd have continued through the whole night if some miracle didn't happen soon.... Luckily for me, that miracle was given as soon as I rang the doorbell to Zebs house and had the front door opened unto me. Delivered by three angels, no less! ^_^ Three angels who had a wooden stake. @_@ And wanted to stake me through the heart with it while giggling maniacally. @_@;;; Shows what happens when you come to these sort of vampire show watching marathons and turn up wearing all black.... Yes, 2nd Note to Self: Next time, wear bright and colourful clothing. Like pink. BUY pink clothing.
Anyway, it's hard to remain serious after being threatened with a sharp wooden implement so I didn't bother to try. I decided to stay quiet for a while though.... Nothing like screaming out, "I hate you all and hope you all rot in the deepest, darkest, dankest pit of HELL!" while emotionally unstable to produce an awkward moment. Believe you me, that's actually happened once or twice (or even more) while I was still living in Adelaide. ^^;;;; I was a rather teary sort lad, it has to be said, though I'm sure most of you have figured this out already. I followed those aforementioned three angels (Clara, Nadea and Zeb.... It just occured to me that if Clara had dyed her hair blonde instead of red, we would have a mirror match with another completely different three team of angels. The ones that belong to Charlie, specifically. O.o) into the centre of the Buffy creative energies.... Otherwise known as Zebs living room with the 48 inch projection screen TV and stereo, DVD and VCR hookup. They also had SKY installed too. I wonder how Sky 1s late night porn looks on that huge screen. Hmmmm. Big screen porn. Scary thought. Bad. I'm sorry, I should-- ATTACK OF THE TEN FOOT TALL PENIS! --stop this train of thought before it-- VEGEANCE OF THE BOUNCING MAMMARIES OF CERTAIN DOOM! --gets out of control. Sorry. Really.
We went through 2 different (and yet closely connected) episodes from Buffys 3rd season (provided by Clara, who'd vigilantly taped them off TV3), which featured Willow in her evil vampire form complete with black leather corset dominatrix outfit and obvious participant of dubious sexual practices.... Guess which of us found her to be even more appealing than regular Willow? ^_^ I mean, BESIDES me and my freakish tastes? O.o During this time of informal Buffy watching, EB and Josh turned up and it was my turn at the stake! Mwaha! Only it wasn't at all exciting. -_-;;; I mean, the least they could have done was jump back in fear as an evil looking asian man in black opened the door and stabbed them in the heart with a wooden stake. But they didn't. I mean, really. Tsk. *I* managed to look shocked, afterall. @_@ Oh well, I forgive EB, because he finally brought me the CD for the 2nd Cowboy Bebop OST and Josh I forgive for lending me so many anime CDs. Hee. ^_^ Anyway, a little while later, a new girl showed up who I recognised as being from the AAC comic book shop spree about two weeks back (hmmm.... The lack of gap from this entry to that one worries me. Need to write more entries). Not sure of her name unfortunately, I'm bad like that. ^^;;; Like when I couldn't remember the name of Chris' friend.... Errrr.... You know. Old whasisname. Yeah, him. O.o Yes, I avoided that pitfall easily enough....
About this time we decided to get on with the REAL Buffy watching sometime at 5:30PM.... After Nadea had to leave in order to go to her diving class, foo. And we started upon the season one DVDs of Zeb, as it should have been. It's great to revisit the show in the days when it wasn't so popular.... 5 years ago, too. Damn, I'm old. @_@ Halfway through the extended watching, Amy came in and scared the bejeezus out of Zeb by coming through the screen door directly behind her sofa seat. That was rather neat. ^_^ A little later Kunfei showed up by more conventional means (ie the front door) and he brought along a big juicy STEAK! Apparently, he wanted to get a headstart on the steak cookoff competition for this coming Sunday he, Nadea and Zeb concocted. O.o Obviously, we had to stop the official marathon one episode later in order to watch Kunfei prepare and fry up the steak. ^_^ It was rather deliciously prepapred if I do say so myself.... Never had it that rare before, either. I think I actually like it that way. I should try asking for medium to rare instead of just plain medium next time. Mmmmmm.... Broo-di stea-ku. Though as nice as it was, the fact that Clara was eating the gravy long after it had gone stone cold is still a bit icky. Brrrr....
After this brief intermission we went back to watching more Buffy which was slightly interrupted by Nadeas return from diving class, thoughts of Nando's Chicken and its tasty goodness, and the sounds of Zeb moaning in ecstasy as she submitted to Claras deft touches and delicate finger work. @_@ Yes, that's right. While the rest of us were trying to watch Buffy, Zeb and Clara were doing.... that thing. That thing which usually involves bare flesh, sweaty palms and lots and lots of oil. I am of course, talking about massage. ^_^ Clara was massaging Zebs shoulders, which apparently felt so good she kept giving out these little cries of joy. ^^;;;; Wish I'd caught the sounds on tape for nlackmail purposes of Zeb and Clara being in a "compromising position". Aheh. Although I supposed that would have been a "staking" offense and considering that particular wooden implement belonged to Clara, my ability to blackmail would probably have been seriously hindered by my inability to pump blood to my major organs. Yes, nasty. O.o
We finished fairly early (in terms of number of episodes of season 1 watched, not time.... It was 11PM by the time we finished) with EB leaving first about an episode before the end, followed by the new girl who I think we mostly ignored (oops.... Sorry.... ^^;;; Stuck in our own little niche group). The rest of us stayed behind and chatted for a while, throwing up suggestions of having an AAC meeting in one of those lightgun game arena thingies (gosh, who sounds like an old man for not being savvy with these things? ^^;;;) Laserstrike, as well as a brief martial arts demonstration as Clara (after only ONE lesson?), Kunfei and Zeb showed off their l33t asskicking skills. Josh, despite having also attended one karate session with Clara and Zeb, declined to butt kick for goodness. ^_^ During these discussions, we somehow managed to move outside and finally get into our respective cars to go home. Well, Kunfei had to drop a whole BUNCH of us home first actually, before he could crash back at his place. Eheh. We've been taking advantage of his generousity a mite bit lately. ^_^
First home was Josh, then Clara, then Amy where we made a brief pitstop and a small game of hitting billiard balls with a pool cue which was not in the least bit a game of REAL pool. Then finally back to my place at 1AM something in the morning. @_@ Oh well, earlier than last time Kunfei dropped me back, aheh.
And so there you have it. The events of the day as detailed by me. Voila! It's late now, so I think I'll shuffle off to bed after posting this. Another busy day tomorrow. ^_^ Wow, I just realised how damn long this entry is. O.o
